Wow!! It amazes me to watch the world fly by around me. People seem so consumed with the world. I often find myself fighting to stay away from the traffic of life.. Is staying away from the traffic avoiding life? Or is it keeping your eyes on the prize? These questions cross my mind on a regular basis as I struggle with my personal thoughts and actions.

Losing Sean was probably the hardest time in my life.. But, it gets easier everyday to look forward to the rest of my life. Things that I had given up on and said this will never happen for me are looking feasible again. I say feasible I’m not ashamed to admit I am still working on it.. I’ll even admit I find myself giving other people advice and then standing there thinking I should take my own advice. I also am not to ashamed to admit that sometimes I get caught in the world too.

I have amazing people surrounding me. Some are there to make me giggle when I need to giggle, some are there when I need a shoulder to cry on, some are there to listen to me ramble on about the thoughts that seem to be spewing through my head these days. But no matter which place they fall they are all amazing. God has blessed me with many amazing people who support me and hold me and pray for me..

Two are better than one,because they have a good return for their work:

If one falls down,

his friend can help him up.

But pity the man who falls

and has no one to help him up!”

Ecclesiastes 4:9-10

God has really been speaking to my heart about forming real relationships. I found out quickly that the real relationship God wanted me to build was with him. I have been searching my whole life for my perfect little family.. (one of the things that my future may still hold) Yet every time in my life I think I have the path cleared something goes terribly off track. (patience is not a virtue I hold dear to my heart)

To truly love someone you must truly know them inside and out.. The kind of love we as humans search for all of our lives is often right in front of our faces but we cannot see it; the obvious until we first love ourselves.. In order to love yourself you must first admit who you are and know yourself..

It amazes me that God gives me the words to type this out when sometimes I feel like my life is a rollercoaster ride and sometimes I don’t think it is ever going to slow down.. And at the same time I want the treasure map that shows me what is at the end of this path so the wind in my hair feels amazing.. Its to bad there is no map.. I sure am glad there is a path though I may catch myself straying from it sometimes but I always find my way back.

Waiting for the right timing, the right feeling, the perfect moment is ALWAYS worth the wait.. God has a perfect plan for every life, a perfect place for you, a perfect person for you.. Listen to the words he speaks to your heart and follow them. You will land exactly where you are supposed to and happiness will meet you..

1 John 4:11-12

Dear friends, since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in us.

So with all that said I get to where I started this journey but with a better understanding of why people struggle with the world and why we all to often we are running like chickens with our heads cut off forgetting to stop and listen.. You can’t here the whisper unless you are living life One Step, One Day, One Hour, One Minute at a time..

Once you begin to slow down and listen you can then begin to show gratitude.

Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough, and more. It turns denial into acceptance, chaos into order, confusion into clarity…. It turns problems into gifts, failures into success, the unexpected into perfect timing, and mistakes into important events. Gratitude makes sense of our past, brings peace for today and creates a vision for tomorrow.

But those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

Isaiah 40:31

It is always the simple things that change our lives. And these things never happen when you are looking for them to happen. Life will reveal answers at the pace life wishes to do so. You feel like running, but life is on a stroll. This is how God does things.

I just continue to pray God’s will is done in my life and in yours.

Saying goodbye to the love of my life has made me see that life isn’t just about surviving it; it is about living it to the best of your ability surrounded by people who love you and people you love. Sometimes it may be a little shocking to discover who is really there when you need them and who isn’t. But all in all every breath you breath is part of an amazing plan. So, every word you speak and action you take is clearing the path you are chosing to follow.. Speak the right path and act the right path and somehow you always end up in the right place at the right time.

Dear God, Our world is surrounded with Chaos, anger, pain, suffering. Lord help us to keep our eyes on the true path. Help us to live for your will and not our own. Let your grace shine in the hearts of the hurting and healing. And Thank You God for the blessings you pour out upon us daily. Even if we don’t recognize them as blessings we know we are surrounded by them daily.  Amen!